I’m very thankful, touched, grateful, and a bit astonished over my book sales. I say this because when I published my book, Passage of Promise, I had a very realistic and sober view of the amount of books I thought I’d sell.
I truly believed I would sell between 10 and 20 copies. That I’d be thrilled to know that 20 people had purchased my book.
But checking out my year-to-date report for all forms of my book sold: International, Print, Digital, Signed Copies, the number is more than 20, and I’m still somewhat shocked, but also so very happy.
Since my book came out May 1 (print) and May 4 (ebook/digital), I’ve sold 100 copies.
If I count the 10 my mother ordered to give as gifts to her friends, I’ve sold 110 copies.
Maybe folks won’t see that as a huge success, but for me, it’s amazing and indeed a success for me, an unknown self-published author (with the help of the best editor I know, D.A. Sarac) with her first ever published book. I feel extremely grateful and blessed.
THANK YOU ALL, who were interested in my book, buying it, reading it, reviewing it. This means more to me than I can truly express.
If you’ve followed the medical history of my youngest son, Christopher, you’ll understand what I’ve got to say now much more. In any case, if you aren’t up on his history, a little tidbit of info on this for the past fifteen years can be found in my blog post, Maternal Moxie: Tenacious Moms of Special Needs Kids.
This morning, I took Christopher for his every-two-year MRI scan. It is to check on the remnant of a brain tumor attached to his brainstem since he was diagnosed with it at 13 months old. Surgeries and radiation therapy followed, the latter to try and stop regrowth. Since 2007, the tumor has been lying dormant, thank God.
There was a scare in the fall of 2008 that the tumor and the cyst it creates had grown a tad. I had to return with Christopher for another MRI scan the next month to make sure before starting up a long, dreadful year of chemotherapy, that he’d been able to avoid all those years.
Feeling desperate, I turned to the Saints of my church. Something I’d never done up to that point. I asked the Panagia (Virgin Mary/Mother of God), Saint John the Wonderworker of Shanghai and San Francisco, and Saint Nektarios to pray for my son.
Within 15-30 minutes, I felt the heaviness sitting on my shoulders be literally lifted off of them and has never returned. I felt at peace.
The next month, I took Christopher in for the MRI scan. The doctor came back to tell me that, for some reason, the tumor had shrunk back a bit, as well as the cyst. He didn’t know why, but I did. The Saints had and still pray for my son, and the prayers of the righteous are powerful!
Since then, the tumor has been stable and dormant, thank God.
Today, I was hoping for the same result.
But that’s not what I got this go around.
Via my Facebook post this morning (minus one of the MRI scanned photos):
First and foremost, Glory to God. The oncologist said that the portion of the brain tumor that has been attached to Christopher’s brainstorm for just over fifteen years has disappeared/gone away!
However, he said he and the radiologists may need a closer look on that at some point, but still, it’s not there on the scan!
Here are the two pics from 2013 scan to today’s. The first picture shows the white portion next to the gray section in the middle of the head is the remaining tumor back in 2013. Today’s scan — the picture on the right— doesn’t show it there anymore!
Having said that, the doctor said Christopher will be getting scans every 3 years for the rest of his life, due to the damage of the radiation that can cause benign tumors outside the brain. However, those are easier to remove!
Along with this, he’s referring Christopher for a multi-disciplinary clinic check up for him transitioning to adulthood. So, he’ll see a neuro-psychologist, endocrinologist, and rehab specialist to check his ability to drive and other things. He’s also being referred to “plastics” (what the doctor called it) to discuss working on his face through nerve work to even out his face. The left side of his face droops a bit and is partially paralyzed (with 7th nerve palsy in his left eye, with an eyelid that doesn’t totally close, and severe hearing loss in his left ear).
Of course, at first Christopher said he wasn’t interested in facial plastic surgery (basically what I’m thinking the doctor meant by “plastics”) because he doesn’t want scars. The oncologist explained there won’t be any scars. That’s what “plastics” does and gets rid of. Ha ha!
Nevertheless, the oncologist told him he can say, “No” after meeting with the “plastics” doctor if he still doesn’t want to do that. 🙂
Also, the nurse put in a referral to an ophthalmologist/eye doctor per the oncologist’s recommendation. I’m very happy about this, because I wasn’t sure who to go to for this. He’s overdue for an eye check.
The third picture farthest to the right is damage on the left side, lower portion of his brain from the tumor, surgeries and radiation that is lit up in white. But the oncologist said the thinking portion on the top and upper portions of his brain look good and are okay, thank God.
Again, this is the best news we’ve gotten on Christopher’s tumor since years ago when it was stabilized. Thank God!
I hope this video conveys hope and peace in discussing my book and living through uncertain and chaotic times. Hopefully it doesn’t come off sad because I’m not smiling that much, but know that this is about the importance of finding solace via reading in this unprecedented time. This video is a first take, unedited piece. Just wanting to be myself here.